Sean and I are getting married soon and I’m so nervous, but very excited! :’D
Yay! <3 I get to go to France, bitches! :D
My boyfriend does this and it’s SO cute! <3
So I Thought…
I thought that a boyfriend was suppose to be there for you. To make you happy, help you when you’re going through bad times, to always make you smile. So i thought that’s how it went. I try so hard to be there for my boyfriend, but what do I get in return? Nothing. On top of that, when he’s mad at me , he talks shit with my sister. Like, that’s not even right. If he wants me to fix something, then he should be coming to me!
My parents are trying to send me to a treatment center and he doesn’t do one thing to help me just because I told him that he was texting my sister. HELLO?? I’m not a fucking idiot. You pretty much gave yourself away. -________-
So, I broke up with him. I need a guy to be there for me instead of worrying that I accused him of texting my sister. Hopefully, he’ll read this and realize how much he lost.
He helped me get up on my feet again. He made me hopeful of my future. Where did all of that go?
I wish that good times came back. :\
God please help me in this time of trouble and hurt. Please make my boyfriend realize that I still love him and that I want him to be here for me.
P.S: Sean if you’re reading this, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and I’m sorry for all the hurt I’ve put you through. Just please realize how much I need you right at this very moment.
Just when I thought I was getting better, everything got shittier. That’s just amazing. Especially since I need it right now. Ugh… I need my boyfriend. :\ Please come back NOW?
Life on Repeat
So, this is how it feels to be on repeat. Having certain events repeat themselves. Is this some cruel punishment that everyone has to go through, or does it target me in my most vulnerable of times? There was a time where I used to be strong or was I completely oblivious to the pain my whole life until now? Have I just become completely numb over time? I don’t think so. I’m so full of pain. How can a single human bear so much pain? One day, one day I’ll let it end itself.
"Can we last through the winter?
The water’s starting to freeze.
The only one who remembers
Taking the wrong step, falling in front of me.
This body’s already aging.
These nights are all ready long.
And if I last through the winter,
I swear to you now, I won’t call.
Congratulations, go home now.”
Circa Survive Remix, Dyed in the whool.
Circa Survive-Kicking Your Crosses Down
It’s a Horrible Feeling When…
… you feel so alone. When all you can go is stare at the wall and it won’t change a thing. When you feel like you’re being swallowed by the pity that surrounds you, creeping like a reaper. When you feel a gut wrenching feeling in the pit of your stomach just pushing through, forcing it’s way into your soul. You wish you can get rid of it. But what if it’s so bad that you can’t even find your way out? It’s so strong that it drives you to insanity and it whispers twisted, yet lovely schemes of pain. It has it’s way with words. How it sways you in it’s arm. It’s sweet, torturous bliss. Now that I’m wrapped up nice and tight under it’s spell, how do I get out? Under the weigh of the pressure, how do you breathe? I’m trapped alone and I’m just dying to get out.
My mood at this moment. :( </3 Too many things going on this month. It’s all terrible…
"Shame on me
To need release
I wanna go all the way
Taking out my freak tonight
I wanna show
All the dirt
I got running through my mind”
Britney Spears :)
You’re the best boyfriend ever. I love you for you. I would do so much for you because you’ve done so much for me. Thank you for making my life the best it has ever been. It’s been one year and one month, and throughout this whole year, you have been wonderful and kind and patient. You deserve the whole world and much more. But for now, you can have my heart, my soul and my all.
E. Selene Ramirez
P.S. I’ll never leave your side. :)
15 Quotes Inspired By Our Love <3
- "Something" by Shakira
The whole song is incredible.
2) "Boy, one day you’ll be a man. Oh girl, he’ll help you understand"
I love this one because it reminds me of you and how you’re leading me onto a sane path. Plus, you always know what’s right.
3)"A moment, a love, a dream, aloud. A kiss, a cry, our rights, our wrongs."
This reminds us of our love and relationship.
4)”Every relationship has its problems. But what makes it perfect is if you still wanna be together, when things really suck.”
This makes me hopeful. Even though we fight and yell and cuss each other out, I know we’ll always have a love for each other.
5)"So rise, and shine. Now’s the time to be alive, To stay awake with me a while, and smile."
This quote from a song makes me wanna go and do stuff with you. We can have an adventure or we can wake up together. That’s what I always imagine us doing.
6) “Stripped” by Shiny Toy Guns
Read the lyrics and you’ll know what I’m talking about. I love you:)
7)"Y si me quedas tu, Me queda la vida"
Translate, then you’ll know what I mean:)
8)"Kiss me without fear, with the heart.A kiss that takes me to the sun. Kiss me without fear, without explanation. A kiss that fill me with your love. Kiss me without fear as if it were your last."
I love it when you kiss me! It sends chill down my spine and makes me spiral out of control. tehehehe
9)"I’ll die for you, my love, my love. I’ll lie for you, my love, my love. I’ll steal for you, my love, my love."
Do I have to explain? Nope. hehe Enough said. :D
10) 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
Read it and weep(: The Bible does send a good message.
11)"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."
That means that we’re no longer two:)
12)"Your Guardian Angel" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
I love you and you’re my guardian angel and I am your’s :)
13)"The only thing that matters is our love.”
I love you so much, it keeps us strong.
14)"Dreaming of You" by Selena
Look up the lyrics and it’s exactly how I feel. This song makes me cry and it gives me chill because it reminds me of how I wanna be with you and how much I need you.
15) "If God is a DJ, Life is a dance floor, Love is the rhythm, You are the music."
I really like this quote.
- Sean : I love you with all my heart.
- Selene : I love you too, mi amor. Te amo.
- Sean: Te amo tambien. <3
- I feel the love! He's the best boyfriend ever! <3